Mirror of deception…

deception |diˈsep sh ən|
the action of deceiving someone : obtaining property by deception.
• a thing that deceives : a range of elaborate deceptions.

Hello people (I need to find a way of addressing you all, better than people or “Hello All!” I will think of something unique.)
But, yes this morning started out absolutely wonderfully, I got to speak with my boyfriend for a few hours on skype. He always has a way of inspiring me and pulling more creativeness out. :) Which is absolutely amazing! I know when I was at the “Ragged Edge Writer’s Conference” I heard many people speak about how they don’t have spouses or family that support their writing. I am absolutely blessed when it comes to that as my sister, brother, and mom are really good soundingboards for Ideas.  My boyfriend is the same way, he listens and then helps me see things, I didn’t see before, which is really nice to have. I remember Robert Liparulo was speaking about how one man was a writer and how his wife didn’t approve of his writing, to the point of messing/deleting files. This sad story ended at the crossroads of divorce or stop writing. Which, I find it would be a sad spot to be at… here you love this person and yet you love writing (and the person you love doesn’t love your gift that God gave you.) The man quit writing (I mean, I am glad he loved his wife.) I am so happy I don’t need to make choices like that and that my family has known me as a writer ever since I was 4 (I put on plays and drew/wrote stories) and I am also happy that my boyfriend knows me as a writer too. He encourages me and helps me chase after God. I just love him and my family for that. I just wanted to put this throw-out, out here.

Besides that I have been writing, as always, I have been writing some stuff that has to do with Identity. How it was that we were created. God poured his love and joy into everyone of us and yet we stand in front of a mirror seeing all the flaws that he must have forgotten to fix. We live in a world that is consumed with these issues. I was thinking about this earlier when I started thinking about things I could change, like “Devin, you need to lose weight, because you aren’t pretty enough.” or “You should do this because you aren’t good enough.” Why is it that we get these thoughts put into our heads?? I know that a long time ago I had, had depression and it was more out of fear. Because, one day I had this voice say that I would kill myself and I knew I would never, but just the frightfulness that I got from even thinking that I thought that, when really it was the devil – because he likes to convince people they are thinking things when really it is him giving us things to think about that consume our time so we end up worried, fearful, sad, and other emotions that would distract us from doing what God set us out to do.

Another few people who dealt with this, was at the beginning of time. Their names were Adam and Eve. They were perfectly made. Had everything they needed to live wonderful lives. They had God there to see and talk to, in person. And yet, the Deceiver came… like always. He came and said, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?” (Genesis 3:1) Satan posed a question to Eve. She then said to him, ““We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.’” (Genesis 3:2-3)

That is where it all went wrong, Satan posed a question. And that question is still lurking in Satan’s bag of tricks. He will pose a question to make you worry, fear, sad, and cause you to lose blessings that God has given you. When Adam and Eve gave in to Satan’s ploy… they lost out on the Garden of Eden and that they would also meet death.

Satan’s questions pose as to “you don’t love him, do you?” or “you’d kill yourself…” or when standing in front of the mirror, “God surely didn’t create you this way? did he?” or “God doesn’t really know how you are on the inside. He doesn’t know who you really are.”

I don’t want this post to scare you, because I am definitely not suicidal or depressed anymore. But I wanted to point out examples from my life that you could see this “Trick of Satan’s”

The story I am working on is about this. How God made us perfect and how people want to change themselves (or are made to believe that they really were not created the “man” or “woman” that God created them into. I got this idea over a year ago with how our country and world has been changing. People care more about the trees being cut down than the future men and women of our world who are being snuffed out even before their first breath with abortion, the gay rights that are spreading all around the world (note: I have friends who are gay or have dealt with gay lifestyle, so I am by no means being judgmental, I love the person, I just don’t agree with the lifestyle because I SEE HOW GOD MADE THE PERSON.)

So I will be needing much prayer as I delve deeply into this story, because I know that Satan will try to pose questions. Why would I hear this morning, “Devin you need to work out because you are not pretty.” I know he wants to try. I heard that and thought, hmmm… yes I need to work out… but the latter of that statement wasn’t true because God says I am beautiful, even though some days I may not feel beautiful. 

Get NaKeD (My sister and I were thinking a cool shirt to promote my story would be named “GeT NaKeD: and see how God created you.” or something like that! (you were born that way!)

Then the LORD God formed a man[c] from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being. Gen 2:7
I put this verse here because you can hear that he actually BREATHED his breath of life into us. That in itself should give you goosebumps… The GOD who created the earth made YOU… YOU!

Back to my “GeT NaKeD” statement, it’s even proved in the Word. :)
Now the LORD God had formed out of the ground all the wild animals and all the birds in the sky. He brought them to the man to see what he would name them; and whatever the man called each living creature, that was its name. 20So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds in the sky and all the wild animals. But for Adam[f] no suitable helper was found. 21 So the LORD God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man’s ribs[g] and then closed up the place with flesh. 22 Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib[h] he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man.

23 The man said,
“This is now bone of my bones
and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called ‘woman,’
for she was taken out of man.”
24 That is why a man leaves his father and mother and is united to his wife, and they become one flesh. 25 Adam and his wife were both naked, and they felt no shame.
Gen. 2:19-24

Tell me what you think! I know this was a LOOOONG Blog entry… But it’s on my heart. Welcome to my dungeon.


2 thoughts on “Mirror of deception…

  1. Continue to be brave and go for it! You have no idea what God will do if you are just willing to ask. I’ll have to tell you the related story some time. Can’t wait to read more!

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